Not a close relationship
My mom an I had our differences, such big differences that I just had to go. She wasnt the kind of mother that gave her life for her kids, she was selfish and liked to drink, we were so poor and neglected. Always made me wonder why she would have so many kids, we were never first in her life. So I kept my distance, it just hurt to be close. I became a mother as a teenager, made my daughter the center of my world. Spent time with her and made sure she knew that she was the most important person in my life, I did the exact opposite that my mother did-I continue to be the exact opposite from my mom. I tried to forgive my mom when my daughter was graduating from high school. I was really excited and proud and was thinking-maybe the drinking was just her way of coping with her hard life. I talked to her and told her that I really wanted her to be there and sent the invitation to her, she told me she wouldnt miss it. But she did. She didnt call me to tell me she wasnt coming, didnt apologize for not coming. That was the last straw, I was mad. I wanted to forgive and move on and try to have a good relationship with her. On April 19th 2012, i got a phone call from my sister that she found my mom unreponsive but breathing, I was thinking she probably just drank too much. She never woke up, she had a brain stem stroke sometime during the night. At the hospital,they confirmed she had no brain activity, the machines were keeping her alive and we needed to let her go. We did. I hadnt spoken to her for a year and a half. Now almost a year after her death, I hear stories and see pictures of her. Of the person she had become over the years, the person I never knew and I'm mad again. If she changed, why didnt she try to be a part of my life? She had 11 kids, and I am the one who never really got to know her.