Not so good after all
It's me Judy, Ms Poster child for moving on.
Actually I am doing pretty well, but I got totally freaked today at the doctor's office I'm having a side effect of one of the medicines I got put on in January due to the afib stuff - it's causing my feet and ankles to swell. Dutifully I reported this and went into my appointment, only to learn that the appointment was for next Friday. They fit me in anyway but I was freaked out that my organized self could have made this kind of booboo. Then the doctor told me that the medicines were no problem that my heart probably was too stiff to pump blood efficiently and is sending me off to the lab to have a blood test to check for heart failure! I am now totally freaked out at what might be happening and me still here all alone in FL.
When my beloved Barry was going through heart issue after heart issue I was always there to tell him it's was okay, we could handle it together and we did take whatever life handed us. Now I need this. I miss him so much. I want someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok. I'm getting scared and confused as to what to think and do. I feel like I am sliding backwards again. I hate this life with no one to turn to for comfort. Bear I need you today and you are in heaven. How can I get along without him?