Nothing will ever be the same

by Patricia Foster

Well, Thanksgiving has come and gone it was the first Holiday for us without our son (Jerry) very hard and emotional day. Not looking forward to Christmas or the New Year. I don't feel like I have anything to look forward to. Although we have other children and beautiful Grandchildren 3 of which belong to my son, I still feel very lonely and empty.

I hear without listening, I look without seeing, I'm not interested in my friends problems I find myself turning a deaf ear to them and most of all I'm tired of people asking how I'm doing or saying I look good. I'm still as sad and hurt as was the day I found out my son was gone & looking good is just makeup covering my tear stained face and covers up the pain on my face but not in my heart.

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Nov 26, 2011
Nothing will ever be the same
by: Karen

I read your story and I just want to say, "How sorry I am for your lost." Losing someone is never easy, but I know that it will get better. Most days the hurt is not as bad and then there are the other days...
I know who holds my future cause in God word He tell says, "He is the author and finisher of our fate." God knows we aren't perfect but He holds everyone of our tears in a jar. In other words He feels and sees our hurts, and He promises He will take away our tears if we just hold on to him. I have no choice but to believe cause of His love for me and you...He died on the cross then rose on the 3rd day with,ALL POWER!

You can find me on Fb anytime under: Karen Jackson I have pic of my,"I Love Lucy" collection as my Fb pic. Hope to hear from you soon. And Thank you for your encouraging words you sent me too!

Dec 03, 2010
I agree....
by: Shirley

nothing will ever be the same....
Reminds me of the song..."Tears of a Clown". Everyone looks at you and sees a happy face yet you are crying inside.


Nov 29, 2010
It's a journey
by: Anonymous

I get it too, Pat. Makeup is just a covering over a face that smiles so others don't worry. Unless one has been through agonizing loss, one does not truly understand such deep sorrow, too deep for words. Each step, each breath, each comforting squeeze of God's loving arms keeps us moving forward even when we'd rather not. Please feel free to write me at "". I lost a son to suicide 5 years ago. Gracie

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