I am an unmarried 39 year old female who lost her Mom on January 18th after a short illness.
Mom and I were very close and I am almost overcome with grief. To make matters worse: My Dad and I do not get along, I have few other relatives and hardly any friends( I am quite shy and find it hard to meet new people).
When Mom became aware that her health was taking an unexpected turn for the worse, we did have one last private conversation. I got to tell her that I loved her and thank her for always being so good to me.
I know that last talk (which was brief because she was quite weak) is something to be grateful for, but it does not seem like enough. I am filled with regrets I can't shake and my sleep is filled with nightmares.
I don't have the money to see a shrink and am hoping someone might have some suggestions for me on how to cope.