October 26, 2013
I lost my husband of 26 years on October 26, 2013. He had alcohol induced cardiomyopathy/congestive heart failure. We talked about growing old together, but deep down in my gut I knew it would never happen.
Where there signs that his health was failing that I messed? Surely a nurse with 33 years experience and a background in cardiology would have spotted something. Were there little signs? like his memory was faltering? not eating as much? where there physical signs? Maybe.
I miss him so much, never thought I would say that. It was a good marriage most of the time, and it was my decision to stay with him. For better, for worse, in sickness and health. I am tired of crying, it clogs up my head.
My professor at school suggested a journal, so I am writing my feelings and maybe this will help me through the grieving process.