On my birthday :(

by deniel pallasigue

I went to the hospital to visit my brother and my mom. When my bro saw me, he immediately shouted and said 'kuyaaaa' and he kinda hug me. We played his psp for a while and decided to go home because i have to go to school the day after. When im walking out of the hospital room, i looked back and saw my brother looking at me as if he's asking me not to live. I still decided to go home. I never knew that that day will be the last day that i will see him alive and smiling because after the operation he never woke up. He was comatose for like a week and died on the exact date of my birthday SEPTEMBER 09 2008! I feel like he just waited for my birthday so I wont forget him.

The thing that really hurts the most is the fact that he was really excited that he will be able to play after the operation.( he has an inborn heart problems, he can only walk for like 3mins because he's having a hard time breathing).. He died at the age of 11.

I still regret the fact that I choose going to school instead of staying with him.. I wish i could say how much i love him. :(

-Deniel Pallasigue

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Aug 20, 2012
thank you doreen
by: Anonymous

thank you so much it means alot to me. i know that someday we will all meet in heaven and from there, we will be able to hug and kiss our love ones.

Aug 20, 2012
On my birthday : (
by: Doreen U.K.

Deniel I am sorry for your loss of your very young brother aged 11yrs. What a sad loss of not growing up with your brother. You will have to forgive yourself for going to school and not staying with your brother for that day. Reality says that NO ONE really knew that your brother would die. Everyone had full expectations of him having an operation so that he would be well enough to go on living a normal life despite he had a heart condition. My daughter was faced with the same dilemma. She didn't know when her father would die. But she stayed home nevertheless. She is glad she did because her Dad did die later that day. She would have been home from work because her Dad died late at night but she wouldn't have been able to spend the day with her dad and also support me because I had to lift my husband and my daughter was here to help me do this. It is a very painfull time for all of us when we lose a loved one. NO PAIN LIKE IT. I hope that you will have loving people around you to support you and that you will be able to one day forgive yourself for not staying home from school. You didn't do anything wrong but I know how you must feel.

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