on ward and forward must focus and keep going

by mark t parsons
(s/wales u.k)


hi ,
firstly i would like to thank those wonderful caring
people which have left replys for me . you cannot express into words how much they have meant to me.

days arrive and depart with different emotions, high and lows
from feelings im getting there to total isolation and mixed
moods.
im finding i cant go out an socialise any more ,cant cope with sympathy so im slowly becoming reclusive .

must find a way out and the will to cope. but its like something has died within me every thing is like an up hill battle want to come home some days and just retire to bed leave the outside world to carry on with out me as ive got nothing left to give.

when will this agony end ,is there any chance i will feel happy again to release me from this unbearable emptyness
and sorrow .iff there is a way havent found it yet
please lord god almighty show me to my road of hope and salvation

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on ward and forward must focus and keep going

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Mar 18, 2012
 alone
by: rayolife

I too cannot go to weddings or graduations or baby showers, whatever where people are celebrating the passages of life with so much joy and happiness, knowing I am totally deprived of those experiences forever.Those bery fortunate people do not realize the luxury they have of many more years of special times with their family, and I have nothing left, but to live till I die. It's been almost 4 years since I lost my son to a stupid unlicensed commercial truck driver with repeat offenses!!!He only served 8 day, for my son who served our country in Iraq and Afghanistan for 15 months, and was doing reserve duty for and additional 4 years.... of course that was not completed.o
Mar 17, 2012
 Moving on
by: Janet

You will find your way. It takes time and we all do it in our own time and our own way. Life is so precious and we forget as we get older just how precious it is. Times will get better. Do not try to rush it, just let it happen at its own pace. That is all you can do.
My condolences on your loss. Time is own our side. One breath, one step and one day at a time is all we can do.
Mar 16, 2012
 We Will Survive........
by: TrishJ

Mark~
Socializing is hard. Since my husband died I really don't like being around people to much. I feel like I want to attend functions but as soon as I get there I don't want to be there.
I think it's just too much effort to pretend that everything is OK. People want us to be fine but we aren't.
Socializing is difficult but the loneliness is really hard. I just don't know what I want. I know what I don't want. I don't want people judging me and telling me it's time to move on. I will say when that time comes.
God bless. I hope you find some happiness today.

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