One way to ease the pain
Some people might think I am crazy but I have found one way to help ease some of this pain, suffering, and sorrow. I decided to go to see a psychic. It has been 10 weeks and 1 day and I feel so lost and out of sorts.
I have been before and always found it fun, fascinating and in some ways comforting for many reasons. I have since been twice since my husband passed and I have to admit I am feeling better.
I was able to communicate with him. I told him how much I loved him and missed him and he relayed to me that he knew and felt the same way towards me. He has been by my side every second since he passed and will always be here with me. He relayed to me that he hears every word I say to him out loud or in my heart.
When I asked the medium if he was happy, he said “Hell No”, he wanted to be here with me in this world. I laughed; he had a great sense of humor. He relayed that he was ok, not happy but ok. He relayed to me that he is sad that I’m not happy but I promised him that someday I will be. He encouraged me to do some of the things we planned and more, he only wants happiness and joy for me. He told me all I have to do is ask in my heart and he will be here to help me thru this.
He relayed to me that this was not his choice and that once it was explained to him why he passed he is ok with it. He relayed to me that he can not tell me but I trust him with all my heart and have to believe that if he is at peace with it then I am to...I do believe that God took him from me for a reason and that it is part of a greater plan and I have to have faith and believe in this.
The hardest thing the medium said to me was that he wants me to find some one else and to live out the dreams we had. He only wants me to be happy and to have the life that we desired. It was incredibly hard to hear that since I want that life with him…but can’t have it now…I just can't fathom it right now and thats understandable but I do believe that someday...
I know the idea is a little out there for most but if you are struggling and want just a little bit of comfort, I suggest considering this.
For now it's one day at a time...wishing everyone well on their journey!