One Year Ago Today, at this time

by Christina
(Pacifica)

One year ago today i lost the most important Person in my life. The Family Matriarch, my Mother. I always thought that I would wither and die the day she was no longer here. I didnt. I continue to live my life and go on living without her. At times i feel a little guilty for continuing to live ok without her. I do miss her every day and think about her every waking minute but still i feel strong, stronger than i ever thought i would. I love you MOM. i think you are giving me strength from Heaven. Thank you for the Dream visits. I look forward to the day we are all together again.

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Apr 07, 2014
thank you
by: stacey

thank you for trying to help me understand whats going on,i apreciate it, its the first time anyones tryed to help me with it

Apr 07, 2014
Grieving for my aunt Brenda
by: Doreen UK

Stacy Grief is so painful and can last a long time. You are confused about the whole concept. None of us knew what to expect from grief until it happens. The best way forward is ONE DAY AT A TIME. You say that you keep busy and it isn't working for you. Everything stays the same. You may be stuck in grief and could benefit from seeing a bereavement counsellor who is skilled in this area to help people move forward better. I learned on this site to take one day at a time, and it WORKS. Life will never be the same again for any of us, but we need to be in a place where we can eventually cope with life and find life meaningful. We have no choice to carry on living so best way forward is to give ourselves the best care. You can spend time building yourself up so that you feel better about yourself after grief since grief seems to assault us. This grief will pass in time and you will find your feet again and be able to survive this loss.

Apr 06, 2014
greiving for my aunty brenda
by: stacey

I lost my aunty a year a go next month shes like a second mom to me, but i cant stop grieving some days are ok, but some not, im getting a bit faint at times bit wobbly on my legs trough stress. sometimes i wont to go with her, i wish i was dead,
i just seem to be going through the motion at times just doing my everyday stuff with out any interest at all, no one seems to know how serious this is for me, as no one really ask me, im miserable inside but i hide it well, i never knew grief could affect anyone like this before and for so long, i think about my aunty all the time, i keep my self very busy to course a distraction to try and keep my mind off it, but its not working for me, its not helping me being so busy. so i guess i dont understand, i feel like saying to this grief what else am i supposed to do, what else do you wont from me, Why are you tormenting me this way, why dont you go away, i dont get it, im just so miserable at times.

Jan 26, 2014
One year ago today, at this time
by: Doreen UK

Christina I am sorry for the loss of your mom. Just like you I thought I would not cope with the loss of my husband of 44yrs. Because I am not falling apart I feel as if I am not grieving and something is wrong. But I also feel that this is just God holding me up and allowing me to feel my sorrow and grief in small doses so it is more bearable. I do have some days of brokenness and know that I am grieving for him. I also wish he was back home and often feel as if he will walk back through the door and tell me that God sent him back to me because my heart was breaking too much and He could feel my sorrow. I do feel that God is sharing my sorrow and I am not feeling the full impact of this otherwise it would crush me. I also did the counselling bit years before he died so I have healed to a degree that I coped better with life. Perhaps this is just the way it is and we wont' get any surprises that will crush us or cause us despair. All we have to keep in our mind is that we will all one day RECOVER FROM GRIEF. When! we don't know but will know when we are healed enough to go on in life.

Jan 24, 2014
One year ago
by: Anonymous

Thank you for posting. it is good to know that we can survive. I am six months down the road and still find it tough.One year ago at this time my mum was in ER and was admitted to hospital. Her health was failing and today one year ago was the beginning of her demise. I wish you all the best. some days I feel I cannot go on but then there are days that are manageable.Like you I think of my mum every minute of every day.Losing your mum is the worst experience ever. Those that are reading this that have their mums please treasure them you never know when you will have to let them go.Thanks again. Therese.

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