only been 5 months

my husband of 19 years died on his 58th birthday.. 10/27/12... he had cancer, we knew for 2 1/2 years... but he was soooooooooo good, if he really suffered, he did not let me know!!!!! he went in the hospital 10/25..... was almost perfect till then... then.... it just happened!!!! 2 days later he died! he was my rock, I think I cry everyday for him...... there is so much more I need to say, but just cant tonight! omg!! I misss that man so much!!!!
I just don't know how to deal with this!!!!!

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Mar 30, 2013
i understand
by: linda

i lost my husband 1/12/13. after 6 months of lung/pancreas cancer. watched his dwindel away with no hope. he passed away at home. his 16 yr old son was home . we have been together for 18yrs. he was 59 yrs old, me 50 yrs old. i have cried everyday since last july (his full diagnosis). i have nighmares everynight since his death. i carried for him at home. the grief sometimes is so overwhelming. watching a 6'4 man of 250lbs to 145lbs. he was the love of my life. raising a child alone is scarry. i had to learn how to even pay bills. i feel i was ripped off of having a chance to grow old together. he died before my parents. i truly feel every ounce of your pain. it hasnt been 3 monts yet but feels like a lifetime already. i have cried a river and felt a times i was going crazy. i even had to remove some of his pictures. i coulnt look at them. i had no idea that the pain was this severe. i have to fake things for the sake of my kid which is difficult. your heart truly feels the pain. i wish you best wishes. no one should loose someone so young. your suppose to grow old together.

Mar 25, 2013
One day at a time !!!!
by: Anonymous

I'm so sorry about your husband, I lost my husband of almost 20yrs to and it was the worse day of my life.he was 55yrs, It's been 2 yrs this Jan 30th. He had colon cancer and its spread to other parts and after 4 1/2 yrs he was tired and in so much pain. He took his life, I didn't want to live with out him, stayed in bed for months, i do go on living for my girls and grandsons,but I will never get over loosing him and can't wait to see him. I wish there was something I could say or do to help your pain" and I don't think people understand until they have been through it. God Bless you" keep you head up and think of all the good time you had with him.

Mar 22, 2013
only been 5 months
by: Doreen U.K.

I am sorry for your loss of your husband of 19yrs. to cancer. I lost my husband of 44yrs. to cancer 10 months ago. It doesn't matter how long it has been it is still too long to lose our beloved husband. Our Protector. Our Everything. It is such a lonely long journey ahead in life right now. I cry every day. It would have been our 45th wedding anniversary this Sunday 24th March. I don't know how I am going to feel going to the graveside to pay my respects to a great man who ever lived and I was Blessed to have in my life for all these years. My soul bleeds for him. No words can describe the pain of this loss. I know how you feel. But it is still our SOLO journey and we do this ALL ALONE. This type of grief feels like being in a strange land. I want to go back to where It was familiar and comfortable. Now when I hear of someone having died my support and respects to them is more real because NOW I KNOW HOW IT FEELS! Death creates a deeper sensitivity in us that causes us to bleed for them. We can only take one day at a time otherwise grief would swallow us up. You and us all will get through our grief in time and we will have to build our life up again. I wish you every comfort and Peace from your pain of loss and I hope life gets easier for you in the days ahead.

Mar 21, 2013
by: Judith in California

Dear Only Been 5 months, I, and many others here, have been where you are. It's the hardest thing you'll ever do. The pain from this total heartbreak is unbelievable. But...with God's help and your strength you will eventually get to the peaceful acceptance side of this horrible emotional roller coaster ride. There is no timetable for your grief so let it out as often and as strognly as you feel. Don't let anyone tell you not to and don't hold back because of anyone.
Pleae journal your thoughts and write to him and about him until you can't anymore. I journaled for 1 solid year to where all I could write was I miss US and I love you over and over.
It's been 2 1/2 years for me. I'm better but sad deep down and will always have a hole in my heart that belongs to him. WE were together for 35 1/2 years.
I pray for you the peace and acceptance side of this. God bless you !

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