Only Love that I will ever have
by Tom Murphy
I lost my wife and best friend on July 23, 2010 at 37 years old. This October 17th will be our 18 year anniversary. Every day it seems to get harder. Everyone always says that every day you will start feeling better but I don't see how. The hole that has been left in my heart will never heal.
We have 2 wonderful boys that have helped keep me in check but I cannot let them know how I am feeling because I have to be strong for them. Our youngest son is having a very hard time with everything and is always asking dad how have you stayed so strong. I know one day god will make sure we see our loved ones again. I just don't know when that day will come.
I miss her so much and do not know how or why I should continue to go on without her. I have been reading on this post for several weeks and see how strong all of you have been. Please tell me how you deal with this pain!!!