Today is our anniversary. My first without him. I am so lost. Roger always gave me something to look forward to. He showed me a world I would never have known. He took this backwards girl and made her believe she was worth something. Now my rock is gone and I don't know which way to turn. My life is over. I go through the motions but nothing will ever be the same. He would have planned a great day for today. Now I sit home alone. I took the day off work because I knew I would be of no use to anyone. The loneliness is so great. No friends to call. I have none. He was my only friend. When he died he took my everything. I miss him so much. The pain, the loneliness, it is so unbearable. We were supposed to grow old together. Now I am so alone. I miss him so much!