Our beautiful baby girl
hi everyone. we lost our daughter when she was 3 months old. she had contracted meningitis according to doctors and she was in NICU for almost a week before she died. they also told us that she has been born with a very rare disease which affected the heart and all the muscles, which in a very short time causes the organs to start failing. we had been playing with her saturday night and sunday morning we found her in her cot. everything happened so fast at the hospital, we were so scared when they put her in NICU, all we did was pray. we were positive for the first 2 days and after that the doctors told us she was in a coma, and chances of her recovering were none. we didnt know how long she had been without oxygen and they said that the damage to the brain stem was too bad to heal. she passed away friday night at 20h08.
it was so much to handle i think my husband and i denied it, even during the cremation and service arrangements. i dont wish it on my worst enemy to have to cremate their baby. its been a month and a half now and i still cant handle it. there might be a chance that i cant have any more children after the c-section and its killing me. i cant bear to see people with their babies, their toddlers, i cry thinking about it. i cant get over her, she was the most beautiful baby, i dont know why things like this happen. i am a mess every day of my life but my husband is so supportive. being a mother was the best thing that ever happened to me, all the fear of the birth and having to care for a tiny person didnt matter when i held her. i have so much sympathy and support for anyone who has ever lost a child, especially a baby, it is the worst thing that could happen.