Pa, I love u, we all love u!
I come from a big family and in our culture and our generation, we never express our love to
one another. We never utter the words 'love u pa' even though we may express our respect or
love to our parents through deeds or gifts on occasions.
My father passed away on 12.11.2012 and when I received the call that morning, saying father was not doing well and had to be taken home, I just couldn't believe and accept the news. I repeatedly asked "u mean he is gone? He is no more here?" I was even reluctant to use the word "died"! Why? How could it be!? Just in less than 12 hours ago, he was still talking to me, reading news papers that I was holding for him in the hospital.
I rushed back, yes, my father had passed away.
After coming back from his funeral, life had not been easy for me.I miss my father a lot. I think I went through depression. I blamed myself for not spending more time with him, I blamed myself for not doing more for him (I stay in another town and have children- bad excuse?) I regretted not telling my father we all love him. I cried to sleep many nights. I still often look at his photos, especially those taken when he was sick in the hospital.
I love you pa, we all love you! You are a great father. i pray you are with God in Heaven.