Papo, I'm Trying to Accept You Died Yesterday

It was just a week ago I last saw my papo alive in the hospital. I'l always remember that last goodbye, even though he wasn't able to talk. He went in 4-5 weeks ago for removal of hernias. It was supposed to be a pretty standard procedure but then things got bad. They perforated the lining of his bowels when operating and didn't find this mistake until it was already too late days later.

I'm angry...and I know this is normal. Had they found that perforation during the surgery, I honestly believe he would be alive today without being put through all the pain. I feel like there is something I need to do...I keep asking myself what I should do. I just don't what it is.

I feel it all; anger, sadness, bargaining...everything. The best way to describe how I feel would be, "I hate everything right now."

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Feb 06, 2014
Papo, I'm Tryig to Accept you died yesterday
by: Doreen UK

I am sorry for your loss of your Papo. Often life's circumstances are beyond our reach to do anything about. You need to FOCUS on the reality of what took place was an accident which took a life away from you, and left you in turmoil and deep pain.
Often when we can't believe we have lost our loved one we internalise our loss and look for answers and failings to help us find an answer that will be sufficient to help us cope with our loss and the on going grief. Often there isn't any answer and we have to find ACCEPTANCE of our loss. Only when you stop beating yourself up for failings and answers and accept your loss as being beyond your ability to stop will you be able to move forward better. You will end your turmoil, but not your grief. Grief is something you and all of us have to experience in order to find healing from our loss.

Feb 02, 2014
My son Alan 26
by: Ellen Mclean

So sorry for your loss, my mother also died as a mistake at a hospital over a 1yr ago , totally understand how you hate every thing , the hard thing about it is that they should still be with us , it's no good people saying times a great healer cause it does not work that way , I also lost my son very suddenly of DVT so when my mam died it was just heartbreaking all I can say is hang on in there c if it changes for you x

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