Paul My Cajun Love - I Miss You!
by Hope M. Holt
I thought I would be spared, forget what today was.
Its been 2 months to the day he died.
Some days easier, some days brutal sorrow.
Making it hard to function as a parent.
Crawl into a comfortable space away from the memories.
I'm seeking shelter from my mind, trying not to cry and
wallow in self pity.
Torturing myself about you going on that last morning walk.
I told you I Loved You.
I zipped your jacket when you bent to kiss me and it popped open. I asked you did you want a hat?
And that look, Did you know? That you weren't coming back?
Regrets, there are many. The things I wish I had done.
The things that we won't do together.
My eyes are leaking again thinking of all I truly lost.
Bound in this house by snow and thoughts.
Entrapping my happiness let me out...
Let me excape this pain and sorrow.
I Miss You....