Peanut butter and jelly #3
It has been 10 1/2 mos since my mother died. I thought I would be over the worst of it by now. No, actually I thought I would be finished grieving at this point, Surprise, here I am missing Mother all over again. Here I am at another crossroad in my life and the one person I could count on to understand and help me decide what to do is gone. I think what makes it more painful is last year this time we were healing our relationship. I had my mother back even if it was for only a short time. Don't get me wrong I am so very grateful we had that time. I just miss her and I want to be able to sit down next to her and talk. I want to see her scrunched up face and here her say "I don't what to tell you" and then I would find the answer which I knew right along. No one can take her place or even come close. I guess I just have to get used to living with this empty space and know that through it all I'll be OK!