Peter. My Bestest Friend ever.
It’s been over a month since I lost you. I miss you so much. I miss you so very much I can hard ly stand it. I miss your cold wet nose. I miss your soft fur that I would bury my face in. I miss your doggy kisses. I miss the happy. I miss the joy. I miss hearing you snore. I miss the jingling of your tags, the tapping of your toenails on the floor. I miss taking you outside. I miss having you in my lap licking my hand. I miss your bark. I miss our Sunday morning chair time. I miss how much you loved Sunday mornings when Mama would make us breakfast (she did it more for you). I miss watching television with you at my side. I miss the way you would lean against me. I miss how sad you were when I left for work (you wouldn’t even look at me). I miss coming home from work to you (I’m still not sure who was happier to see who). I miss the way you loved your goodies. I miss how you made us laugh. I miss the way you loved having your ears rubbed. I miss cleaning you up after you had been outside. I even miss picking up your poo (I still have plastic bags in my jacket pockets).
Mama used to tell me that I spoiled you to much. I always told her I wish I could spoil you more. Sometimes Mama would ask why I had tears in my eyes. It was because I loved you so much.
It’s been almost a month and a half. I cry every day. I try to lift myself up. I sleep poorly. I wake up listening for you and you’re not there. My hair started coming out when we lost you. Nothing seems to really matter anymore. Mommy and Daddy can’t believe how empty and quiet our (your) house is without you. For thirteen years and ten months you were the highlight of my day, the sunshine on an otherwise gloomy day. My reason for getting up in the morning. I’ve never felt so alone and lost. You were everything to me.
I knew losing you would be hard. I hated seeing you slow down. I hated knowing that you must have been hurting, but you let the happy override the pain. I knew our time together might be getting shorter. I would have done anything for you, and wish I had done more.
I miss you. Mama misses you. I thank Mama every day for bringing you into our lives. You were the bestest little dog ever and the very very best friend I ever had..
We Love you and will Love you and miss you forever.