Phantom of the Opera? Christmas #2Alone
Las Vegas 2011
Where to begin? Where does it end? Christmas is upon us and even thought I have a friend who care, a friend from years ago, a friend that could be more its still sad and painful.
This year for my mother were going to an Italian dinner with Veal Parmesan that she loved so much and then to the Stage of Phantom of the Opera. She's always wanted to see it and giving my mother what she wants at this stage in her life is the least I can do. How much do our parents give and give, we as children take and take. Its time to give back. If you know the Phantom of the Opera you know its a true love story. I want to laugh, cry and crave for the desire they show has to offer.
I've reconnected with an old friend 10 years ago. It seem we both had an attraction but were unavailable at the time but now seems available. Do I go or do I stay?
Tonight is Christmas Eve, truly the first time I'm on my own, by myself, alone since moving into my own place.
I like John and hear Billy in my mind. Problem is were 236 miles apart. Guess we'll see where that goes.
But its Christmas Eve and I miss Billy, our Christmas Eve's long gone.
I see his face, his laugh and him buying me everything just to please me. Billy's no longer here.
My mother is with my brother and sister-in-law (they don't talk to me, I'm to direct) at a Christmas Eve party, so Christmas is full of memories, wants and desires for something that is no longer here. It's been 1 year 6 months and it could have been yesterday. The Phantom has such a love story that my heart aches for love once more.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I worked today because that's retail and the crazies were out for that last push of buying, but when I got home it was loneliness.
I don't understand and sometimes I don't know if I'm going forwards or backwards...
But I w1ll continue as I do each day ~
1 Step, 1 breath at a time, 1 year ~ 6 months