PRINCESS STORE NUMBER 2

by Andrea Trussell
(Arlington Texas)

Hi my name is Andrea Trussell and this is my 2 story about my dog princess she was like a daughter to me and today on 2/15/2013 would have been my dog Princess 18 birthday and also today is her first birthday in heaven so today I want to her grave and put some flowers out and said happy birthday to her and I toad how much I miss her and love her I remember when I got Princess I was 6 and a half years old witch means we grew up together I remeber when I got her she was my daughter my best friend my every thing we did everthing together like watch tv and movies and we played out side together she slep right next to me in the bed we made a lot of great memorys together so today is a very sad day for me today is not only my dog birthday it is my first celebration with out her I always celebrated her birthday very year when it come and Princess died on 9/11/2012 that was the sadest day of my life Princess got really bad arthritis her arthritis got so bad that she couldn't walk ant more and that really broke my heart to see her struggle everday I took her to the vet and he said that their was nothing I could do to help her I really wanted to help her but he said it was best if I let here go so that weeken I spend as much time as I could with here and on 9/10/2012 I made a video on my phone and toad my dog my daughter goodbye I said I love you and you are amazing and you are beautiful and you are the best thing that has ever happen to me and then I said i'm sorry and i'm so sorry then I started crying and that night when I want to bed remeber looking at my daughter and thinking to my self that tomorrow is going to be the sadest day of my life I am going to have to say goodbye to my daughter forever then I started crying I cryed my self to sleep that night then I got up the next day and got ready to go to the vet to have my daughter put to sleep I remember that moring why I was getting ready I was thinking to self I can't beleive this is happing to me so I took her to the vet and they had here but to sleep and that point I felt like a horrible mother I said I killed her I just killed my daughter I feel like a horrible mother then I took here to the cenetery and they took her body and but it in the casket then they took us into the viewing the they took my daughter in the viewing room then they closed the door and at that piont I felt like a murderer I know that I am not a murderer but at that time I felt really sad and I felt really bad that I had to kill here then I looked at her face and that when I new when that she was gone from my life for ever then I started crying my heart out that was the hardest I have ever cryed in my life not only did I loose my daughter I lost my best friend Princess was the best friend I have ever had in my life then they buried her and then that was it she gone from my life for good so when Halloween and thanksgiving and christmas I said well this is my first Halloween and thanksgiving and Christmas with out my daughter and that was really hard to go threw because I used to spend every holiday with my daughter and on the holidays I remember laying in my bed looking at the ceiling and I said happy Halloween and thanksgiving and marry Christmas to my dog Princess in heaven I love you and I miss you and I said I am so sorry that I had to kill you Princess I hope the you can forgive me I mean I am glad you in a safe place but I really for like a horrible mother then I could start cring and then when new years came I said to my self before I want to bed well this will be my first year with out my daughter then I started crying my self to sleep that night and even now I still really miss here a lot but I just want to say something to my daughter I love you and I miss you a lot and I am really sorry for that I had to let you go I hope you can forgive me for letting you go and I am really sorry and if I could have gotten rid of arthritis I would had gone it but you can't get rid of arthritis their is nothing you can do to get rid of it and seeing you struggle ever day was hard for me their were times when I wanted to break down and cry for you because I felt so bad for you but I toad my self that I have to stay strong for you and that I was not going to give up on you and I didn't I never gave on here and I said to my self no matter how hard times get you never give up on your pet and no matter how young or old your pet is you never ever give up on them and I am glad that so she in a safe place but today on her birthday I wish she was here with me to celebrate with me and me and Princess were together for 17 years and now she is gone from my life for ever and for chrismas I want to a place and had some words put on the pitcture frame on the top it said in memory of princess then on the bottom it said 2/15/1995 - 9/11/2012 and each one of the frams had a picture of princess but each picture was different one of her and I gave my mom,dad,brother,friend and my self one of those fram that way they can remember her and sometimes when I really start thinking about her I feel like I want to go into a corner and just cry my heart out like I did on the day she died and I am still really heart broken and I still really miss her a lot and I still feel really bad for letting her go and I still wish there was something I could have done to help my daughter but their was nothing I could have done to help my daughter I feel like a horrible mother that I could save my daughter I really wanted to save my daughter but when the vet said it was best to let her go I toad my daughter the day before she died that I really want to help you and save you but I can't and I can't save you or help you and I am very sorry that I can't save you or help you I really want to save you and help you but can't and I am really sorry then I gave her a hug and started crying but I know that I made a good decision by letting her go because now she is not struggling any more Princess was my daughter my best friend I gave half of my life to princess and now she is gone from my life for ever me and Princess had so much fun togething and if she ever needed anything I was right their to help her and anytime I needed someone to talk to or to play with or my fun with that was my daughter Princess anytime she needed something I was their and if I needed something she was and when I was young I was outside with princess and I looked into her eyes and I toad her you no what princess me and you are going to be pals for every I just know it and thas was exactly what we were we were pals for ever and now my pals gone for ever but I just want to princess I love you and miss and I am really sorry that I had to let you I hope you can forgive me for letting you go i'm really sorry and I hope you had a great birthday in heaven so happy 18 birthday princess and mommy love you very much thank you for being apart of my life for 17 years and ones again I am very sorry that I couldn't save you or help you i'm very sorry princess ok

Thank You Andrea Trussell

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