Problems are getting worse
by Lonely daughter
Since losing my precious mum the loneliness seem to be getting worse. I seem to dwell more on how her pain and death was due to holding down three jobs when she was exhausted.
Also when she was very ill the doctors seemed to miss opportunities to help her. It was only when I insisted on blood tests they believed mum was ill.
Extended family are not close and when there is any contact it is me who has to initiate it. An in law who was always unkind to my mum said `At least I gave her grandchildren mare than you did' When they know my disability affected my fertility.
Now I am dreading my birthday, Christmas and every day is a battle without her presence.
We were never apart, it might have been called a single parent family, but it was complete with the presence of my lovely mum.