Progress report number 2
PROGRESS REPORT NUMBER 2.
It will be seven months today since my sweetheart passed away and I would like to describe my life now.
I am still desperately lonely and miss her terribly but I have tried to fill my days, I have joined two local orchestras which will be starting in September, having been a violinist since the age of eight until I was fifteen when I met this wonderful girl and decided I would rather hold her than the violin. I am now looking for a teacher to bring me up to standard. One of the orchestras is called “THE SILVER SURFERS” and it is for anyone who plays a stringed instrument of my age and the other is an amateur orchestra who gives concerts for charity, so I am practicing hard..
I am also trying to learn Bridge which I am finding incredibly difficult but I will persevere until I get the hang of it.
I have started writing again but the words do not flow as easily as they did. My song writing has come to a complete stop as all my songs were of love for her and the inspiration has gone.
I tried last night to sing and play on the guitar Roger Whittaker’s ”THE LAST FAREWELL” but failed miserably bursting into tears at the last verse.
I am still grieving badly and the tears flow daily,the longest walk is the one up the stairs to an empty bedroom. Although something strange happened last night, when I entered the room there was a strong smell of her perfume which wasn’t there earlier in the day, I sincerely hope it was a sign from her that she is watching over me.
I speak occasionally to grief counselors on the phone if I get too lonely on an evening and they are all unanimous in telling me how lucky I was to have had such a deep passionate love that lasted for seventy years and I still thank the good Lord for sharing her with me for all that time.
So, bottom line is, I am still heartbroken but trying to get on with my life, difficult as it is without her, but with a small degree of success but nothing can fill that ache in my heart that I know will never heal.
The memorial stone is nearly ready with words that try to describe our deep love for each other.