Rapid & Unexpected Loss of Mom to Cancer July 2014
It is all still so fresh and new. It was just ten days ago I lost my mother to cancer. She had not been in perfect health but it took a mere two months from her diagnosis to her death.
I feel a bit guilty that I did not know last year she was ill, when she began slowing down and getting forgetful. I wish I could have done more for my Mom in her last days. I feel numb and oblivious sometimes to the pain and grief. Somedays it hits me, like this morning. I was very weepy and emotional. It has only been ten days and I worry about how I will get through the holidays. There will be none of her cooking or food. I worry about my siblings who I know have a harder time with this all. I miss you mommy. My sweet sweet girl. I am going to hold it together though. I am looking for bereavement counseling and that is how I found this forum. Thank you for letting me share.