Reflections of what was, and is...

by Hope
(Tappy Happy)

The mirror doesn't lie. It shows what I have been though and still have to face. So as I look into the mirror and study the changes. It would appear that I have aged 15 years in 1 year. Dark circles under my eyes that began while he was in the hospital and moreso after he died. I suppose I could cover it up but why? I have earned it as I have earned the grey that now peppers my hair. There is a permanent look of sorrow even if my mouth lined and tired smiles, the eyes still have pain in them that will not cease.

Maybe I look damaged, I suppose that I am. But look closer and you will see a look of determination. I have gotten through more than I thought humanly possible and will manage to come to terms with what cards I have been dealt. Not happy with it by any means, but thankfully have learned what is truly important. And try to live my life accordingly.

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Dec 03, 2010
by: Judith

Hope, you have shown strength in responding to others on this site and you have comforted me too. I look in the mirror and see the same things but I continue to make up because I always wanted to look my best for my husband and it became a way of life. I make up and cry at those weird times and let them flow even when out with friends. I don't have to pretend nothings wrong, and it feels good. I just remember to put on waterproof mascara and eyeliner. Just look in that mirror and say here is the reflection of a loving, caring person who is in pain now but this too shall come to pass with time. You will regain your outward beauty as time heals you. I'm willing to bet you are your own worst critic tho and are still physically pretty as others see you.

Dec 02, 2010
by: Jen

The mirror only sees our outer reflection it does not see your huge heart that has helped us so much along the different stages of our journeys. If it could see inside it would show what a beautiful person you are.

You are strong and determined thro your grief but know that altho we cannot see you, we see so much more.

always here,


Dec 01, 2010
by: Zoe

You are an extraordinary woman Hope, you have pulled myself and others through more than you can imagine and still you live your pain while you help us.

When you look in the mirror know what you have done for us.

Dec 01, 2010
You are caring
by: Colleen

You might have grey in your hair and bags under your eyes but you have a pure soul, for even though you are grieving you have a kind word of support for a stranger in South Africa. Your words have been a great comfort to me. So next time you look in the mirror see the kind and caring person that you are.

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