R.I.P.... MY SWEET ANGEL...(TAMMY 8/27/70-12/20/2008)

by Mike Stryker

Tammy was everything too me. Not one day went past that I didn't thank god and realize how lucky I was that our lives cross paths. We met in January of 1991 and from that moment on I knew she was special. We were married for 13 years(together for almost 18) She was my best friend, we were truly soul mates. Let me take a minute and tell you a little bit about her. Tammy was the kind of person who would help anyone at anytime. She was a hard working mother of two, who's love for her family was just endless. She was honest, faithful, a one of a kind women(that's why I'll never understand why it happen to her). She gave me two of the best kids a father could have and for, that I thank her from the bottom of my heart. Its been a little over three years since that horrible day in Dec. when Tammy had a massive heart attack, she was only 38. Its just not fair, she missed her daughters prom, her sons first high school baseball game,both of them getting their license, both graduations, her daughter starting college and so much more. Your not suppose to be at midlife at the age of 19. I'm trying my best to move on, but its so so hard. I love her and miss her terribly. This is by far the hardest thing I've every had to go thru ,I'm now 44 years old and I feel so lost and empty.The same thoughts keeps running thru my head over and over.... It wasn't suppose to be like this....Its not fair to the kids.... she never did anything to deserve this....What could I had done different.I'm so scared of the future without her, we had so many plans. I hope there's someone out there that can understand how I'm feeling.

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Feb 22, 2012
by: Annette

There is no explanation, no justification, no reason in death. Its lonely, its agonising, its heartbreaking, its fury and it feels like the pain will never end.
The reason it hurts so much is because you love her so much. Unfortunately you can't have one without the other. How loved she must have felt. That's good.
Don't waste the feelings you have now- use them to become a better man. One who has suffered and understands no-one in this life escapes suffering at some time, and so you are kinder.
You seem to have been a good father, maybe a more thoughtful, less critical, judgmental person.
No-one knows what happens after death but if I do meet my beloved husband again I want him to be proud of me and to know that even though he physically left me he was part of my life every day.
That he made me a better, worthwhile person and that it is in his memory every day that I do what needs to be done and try to be better- that he has never gone. He is with me always.
You won't find answers or fairness, or reason. Neither will I or anyone. Just know your not alone, you have your children, maybe grankids who will make you laugh, and remember to breath.

Feb 21, 2012
I understand
by: Nicole Anastasio

I know how you feel. You are years into it and I am 15 days. My fiance died suddenly at the age of 21. It hurts so bad losing them suddenly. I don't understand how good people can be snatched from this earth when they have dreams and lives to live. Tim was happy! Know that you made Tammy happy. I am having such a hard time with this I don't know if I have advice to give just yet but I can tell you that I am here, and I know the pain. I am only 20, but it hurts just as bad.

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