Running on empty

by Colleen
(South Africa)

I am running on empty. It is just over two months since Bruce died. Get up in the morning go to work drag myself through the day counting the hours till it is time to go home. Dread going home to a empty house. Do the shopping, pay the bill all on empty. The only emotion I feel is heart break.

To make matters worse I received a phone call on Thursday to tell me an ex work mate had been murdered on Wednesday, he was shot in the head in front of his two small children and his wife all for a cell phone. All I could think of was that his wife's hell has just started. Heaven must be short of women.

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Feb 09, 2011
Your not alone
by: Anonymous

My husband shot himself two years ago. I am left with two small children and a big house. I feel like can't go on by myself. I am very depressed and lonely. I struggle to make it through every day. I have to go on for my kids.

Feb 07, 2011
Just what I was thinking!
by: Cindy


I thought the same thing, Heaven must be short of women! My husband passed away 2 1/2 months ago and I am so very lost in this world without him. I can't even think, which I don't even have a job and I need one to pay the bills. I went to an interview and just broke down. The lady told me I was not ready to go to work. My husband was my life and I don't know how to live this life without him. I was 18 years old when we got married and today would have been our 35th anniversary. If it wasn't for my kids, even thought they are grown, I would not want to even go on... I don't want them to lose their mom & dad so soon together.


Feb 06, 2011
running on empty...


You have come so far in a short time. I think that we hope or expect this to just be over and so wish it would just go away. Grief is not like that though, It is something that we need to endure and survive. It does get easier as time passes and there is not a magic month when it does. Just one day the things that would normally bring you to tears is instead a sad memory, but you go on with your day. I think the only way I can describe it is being able to recuperate easier. I wish I could bring you some insight on the process or have words to sooth your soul. For now just know that I will listen and try to help.
My best to you always...

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