She was an amazing woman. I know everyone says that about their mom, but mine truly was an exceptional example of a human being. Honest to the boot, loving and unwavering dedication to anything she made a commitment to. She was 59. Died suddenly of a massive heart attach 4 months ago. I am 34. I am lost without her. My entire life, she has been my anchor. No matter the mistakes I made she never wavered in her loyalty to me and my brother. I feel so lost. I ended a 3 year relationship after her death, have gained so much weight, have lost all interest in socializing. I just want to be home, watch mindless sitcoms and drink. I don't know what to do. Does it ever get better? I am grateful so have a sibling who is a kind and good man. He is due to get married in August and he is the only family I have left in this world. I am thankful we live in the same city but I think boys cope with grief a little different than girls. I don't want to burden him because I am his big sis. I don't know what to do? Not a day goes by that I don't cry uncontrollably. People have told me that one doesn't mourn properly when they are drunk. So I stopped drinking from Sunday through Thursday. Why am I still crying and going through such heart wrenching grief on Monday, tuesday, wednesday and Thursday?
She was 59, in great health, and she drops dead of a massive heart attack. I miss her so much. We spoke every single day of my life no matter where in the world I was. Now I don't know what to do. I go to work but only because it's my own business but I can barely motivate myself. Does it get better? Do you accept it?