Sam Landon shaw, our precious angel
by Natalie Gruzin
Our little angel Sam left us too early, he was born at 23 weeks 5 days. 16 weeks early, his due date was February 1st 2013, he died October 11th 2012 after trying do hard to fight to live. After 5 hours of medical intervention we made the decision to let him go to a better place, he died 2 hours later in our arms. One of the hardest decisions I've ever made was letting him go. We are still with him at the hospital but I feel like our little man is gone, I don't know how to prepare to walk out these hospital doors without him and go home to a house without my baby. It feels unnatural and overwhelming to not have him here and I would do anything to trade places with him. There are so many unanswered questions that we have as to why this happened to our precious Sam, I keep asking why and what if. My grief comes in waves, I know he's gone but I feel so sad. I had so many hopes for my little man Sam and there's so much I missed. Him smiling, laughing, crawling, talking everything I wish I could experience with him. My heart is broken I miss him so much.