Scooter Doopers...I Love You
Scooter was a part of every piece of my life. I have no family or particularly close friends. My Scooter baby came into my life and none of that mattered anymore. She was a super bright light with an unrelenting spirit.
Scooter was laid to rest at the home we built togather. Her passing was very quick. She was dignosed with diabetes on the 30th of Sept, by Sunday night she was in a speciality clinic. She passed 26 hours later. They were never able to determine why she was not responding to the insulin.
Many do not understand why I am so distraught over her passing. I feel that this is because they really do not understand me. This is how my Scooter Baby and I became so close; she understood me. I know that I will get over this in time. It is just so hard not to have someone close to me that understands me and still loves me, like she did.
Our last hours togather was something special. I wrote an eulogy and the tale of our farewell. It has helped me by expressing this and maybe it can help someone else too.
My Very Best Friend,
Some may have called you an animal, a pet, or a dog. I saw you as a special life like no other, I called you my friend; Scooter Doopers. We did not need names or words to express things to each other. We had something more somehow. You came into my life quietly, but you have had the biggest impact of anyone I have ever known.
We quickly started our relationship the first days of your life. You were so very full of life, that you could hardly contain it. It overflowed in every aspect of your being. At three days old without sight, you barked at me as I came out to you. We would tirelessly play together. And how you would not lap up your water like the others, you had to open your mouth and dip your snooper into it up to your eyeballs and snap and gulp at it. I loved how you could not contain yourself when I would come home, making your special yelps and jumping high into the air. If I came home and I was feeling tense or would become frustrated with something, you would not give in until I was calm again. Some may have seen you as aggressive sometimes, but I knew that it was just your enormous heart not being able to hold back. Your super sensitive feelings and how you expressed them relentlessly. You were always the best you could be and I love you.
There were thousands of great times we spent together; I hope that these were enough for you. We opened up our heart to each other and put everything on the line without fear. Our lives became so interlaced, and I am so happy to of had shared this experience. I always included you in all my thoughts and decisions. This is what makes our parting the most difficult, but I would not trade them for anything. What I feel now is the pain of our pleasures, and I embrace it as much as I did you.
I will always love you,
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The call came late, I already knew what was to be said. I rushed to you, to bring you back home.
You were so calm. Seeing you without your light shining bright was so very hard, but I knew.
As we crossed the desert the road opened up for us. Lying by my side, as always, we traveled slowly and the drive, our last, seemed to linger somehow.
The night air was cool, and the moon shone brightly through the darkness. The clouds raced by across the sky in unusual patterns. It was like the whole universe knew that you had passed and that your spirit was being taken in. There was not a single sound to be heard, everything was completely still as the soil yielded.
I laid you down under the grass where we played so often; at the home you were born and we made. At 2:00 am on October 6th, 2009 I said my final goodbye to your body.
You were my closest companion, my dearest loving friend, and an integral part of my spirit. I will always love you and miss you.
Your Greatest Friend.