Sean Patrick Cotter
by Carol , Seans mom
March 13th will be four months to the day my 24 year old son did not get up for his night shift. He was tired and had gone to bed earlier in the day. He worked the night shift so this was not out of the ordinary. When he didn't get up our nightmare began. Now almost four months later life if rough. I struggle threw each and every day. I never feel good anymore. I sit here this morning dreading another doctors appt. I am trying to be strong for my two daughters. They are wonderful and deserve a strong mom. My strength has been sucked out of me. I just can't imagine I have to go the rest of my life without my only son. Sean was the oldest of three children and my only son. I miss him more than any words can say. I have feelings of sadness and panic. I wish I could turn back time and know something was going to happen. Maybe I could of saved him? I have learned along this horrible journey that there are so many wonderful families that have lost their beautiful children. I can not believe how many young people in our world do not get to live their lives. It is so overwhelming. It has been helpful to talk to some of them though I wish none of us were going threw this. Some mornings I get up now and think of the families that will start their day as I did that day, just feeling lucky and ok and by the end of the day their world will crumble. Again, I am so shocked by how many children die. Accidents, Overdoes, Murder and Sickness and Suffering. This is definitely a side of life I wish I hadn't been introduced with.