seeing an advert on cancer hurt greatly
by leas j
No one has cancer in our family, thought Its belong to another family. Now when I see a advertising about cancer, makes me angry. Why and how to my own mum, who die of it. Such fast, rare form. I am so sad that's we didn't get a chance to say goodbye as she was sedated as she was In so much pains, however she was blessed not knowing the results of having cancer and that's there was no cure. I was blessed in being with her on holiday not long before she die. I just feel sad that I didn't have the encouragement to sit with her more when she needed rest due to being poorly as I thought she was having a simple illness and would recover. I was giving her space and now I feel that space was a wasted opportunity. I know we can't beat ourselves up as we don't know what around that corner. I still can't believe how quickly she has gone or is gone. I can't seemed to cry as much it hurts and to talk its huge pains on my chest. Many of us lost mums, but its feels lonely. Its hurt not able to see her voice on the phone e or see her emails... I have lots of photos all over my tables. Trying to fill in the gap of many questions. Its so raw and I feel so old now and confused. The worse- my daughter is 16 mths, who do I share my silly stories of my daughter? ?