I feel so selfish but I just want him here to take care of me. I am so lonely and I am so tired. I miss him so much. Roger died over 8 months ago. He was my life. We talked we laughed we loved. We would go on long rides and and just loved being together. I don't know what to do. Everyone says find something to do. What? Everything we did we did together. I have no friends. No one to say- hey let's go grab a bite to eat. I honestly don't think I can do this. I have turned off all emotions so I stop crying in front of people. I get through each day and come home and cry myself to sleep. I wish it had been me instead of him. He would know how to handle this. I love you Roger so much!