They tell me that grief will not kill me. But at Night! The loss of you becomes a roaring tsunami that I turn and face, arms upward, calling, crying out your name.
I am just short of two months total into this terrible loss. My love of nearly 49 years died Aug 2, 2010 and I, too, reach out at night for her. The tears still come, maybe not as often and maybe a little softer, but that is not a given. I still have body racking sobbing triggered by any number of reminders. I am told the first year benchmarks will be hard and never will the hole in my being be gone but I will move on eventually and I trust you will, too. Share your grief with your trusted ones. I find it helps.
We have all been there by: HH
Though I am a 10 monther and would like to assure and promise you that it will get better in X amount of days, it does not work that way.
You are in the Really Hard month when the fogginess wears off and you are stuck with the reality of death.
Later you will have more good days and the bad ones will still spring up as a memory hits you below the belt.
But know that eventually you can go face the demons of your past and start forward with a life of you own.
And please believe that the one you loved will be there, right beside you guiding you through it all.
HH
Your not alone ~ by: Patricia
I wish I knew what to say, I feel the same. Love, heart and soul being pounded every minute every second of the day. How do we endure the emotional upheaval? 1 step, 1 breath at a time my cousin is always telling me. I agree ~ take heart, you're not alone ~
