Seven months ago..

by skye

My brother was 19 when he died. It was seven months ago.
In March 2012 my brother Jordan and his boyfriend came to visit. My brother had moved to California when he turned 18. So we spent time together and it was great. We had so much fun the first week of April they went back to California. My brother was healthy,happy and perfection as always.

Three weeks later, at 10pm I get a call from my step dad. I replay that night in my head daily.

Jordan was at the park with his boyfriend and his friend when he turned blue, starting shaking, and gagging.
When the ambulance arrived he was already pronounced dead.

Later we found out he died from Myocarditis which is bacteria in your heart. This condition has no signs, symptoms, or cures.

My brother had Myocarditis for three months before he died. He got it from a chest cold most likely.

We then had a open casket funeral and a witnessed cremation.

I miss him so much. I feel so weak and numb.

Rest in Peace Big Brother. 080892-043012

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Dec 03, 2012
so sorry
by: pam s

I am so very sorry. I lost my grandson on nov 26 2012.he was 18. I raised him from 5 months old. I so know your pain and it is unbearable. Patrick was shot ands his services are tomorrow. I am having a very hard time tonight.Again I am so very sorry.

Nov 30, 2012
Seven months ago...
by: Doreen U.K.

Skye I am sorry for your loss of your big brother 7 months ago. What a tragic sudden death. To lose a sibling so very young is very difficult for the family left grieving.
Sudden deaths can be supported well by counsellors if this route is appropriate and any of your family is struggling.
Life is so very painfull now when we lose a loved one. Life becomes empty and lonely. We feel we will never recover. The first few weeks are the worst and one is just struggling to get their head around what has happened. For days you become numb and in shock and disbelief and some people get stuck in grief where they are waiting for their loved one to come back.
Every day is such a struggle. The very atmosphere changes and it feels as if we are in another world and this loss did not happen. We have no choice but to go on in life. But we have to hold on to our sanity and process things as we are able. It will all eventually fall into place and we may be able to move forward into a place of healing from our loss.

Nov 30, 2012
So sorry for the pain your feeling but I understand it
by: Anonymous

I just wanted to say to you, that I feel your pain and I am so sorry for your loss. Take care & God Bless Jan x

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