She couldn't live without him
My wonderful dad dropped down dead on 14th July 2011, he was only 60 years old and died from hypertensive heart disease. It was such a complete shock, that shock proved to be a useful buffer in those early days. My parents had a very close marriage, they were true soul mates and had been together for 40 years. My mum was devastated, the first time I saw her after he died she just looked like half of herself. She'd shrunk and the light had gone from her eyes. It was a terrible time, my mum was trying to be so strong, she was trying to protect me and my kids. She lost weight and was so thin I finally managed to persuade(force) her to go to the doctors. Anyways, she died too. She went into hospital on 14th February - my dads birthday and his 7 month anniversary. She died on the 18th of multiple organ failure due to a burst duodenal ulcer- she was 58. She had no fight left in her. And although I don't think she wanted to die, I don't think she wanted to live either. I miss them both so much. I wake up in the night unable to breathe and panic I'm going to die suddenly too. I worry that I'll be leaving my children motherless and grandparentless. I don't know if that anxiety is a symptom of grief. Or I really need to get checked out by the dr. If my parents had visited their dr when they first showed symptoms maybe they'd be here today.