She was a gift

by Jill Quesenberry
(St. Peter, MN.)

I had to put my kitty Josie down yesterday, May 16. She was 20 years old. I went through re-hab in 1991 and she was my sobriety gift. I met my husband and he wasn't a cat person but she was part of the deal and if he couldn't handle that I told him he would have to hit the road. Later on, in my life, I had been struggling with mental illness and had thoughts of ending my life. I couldn't do it because of Josie. I knew no one would care for her if I was gone. She saved my life!! I also thought I had come to terms with losing her because of her age but, as I sit here, with tears rolling down my face and sobbing, I know I haven't. I didn't think it was going to be this hard either. We buried her in the yard and I do find comfort in knowing she is still "here" and I can still talk to her and visit her everyday. I think about how she used to purr and her warmth when we would sleep together. My heart is breaking and I miss her so very much. I love you dear friend Josie. You will live forever in my heart.

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She was a gift

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May 31, 2011
 E-mail address
by: Karen

Hi Jill,

I just tried to send you and e-mail, but it came back undeliverabled. Is it gmail.com?

Peace, Angus' mom
Karen
May 31, 2011
 your e-mail address
by: Karen

Hey Jill,

I just tried to send you and e-mail, it came back undeliverable.

Peace,
Karen (Angus' mom)
May 29, 2011
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by: Jill

I haven't been able to return to this site because of the sadness. I want to thank you for you very kind words and understanding. I was just outside, by her grave cleaning up around it and the grief just overwhelmed me again. I kind of got a weird feeling after reading your response. We used to have a dog named Angus too....who has passed. And you mentioned about the blanket thing....I did that the night before, slept with it. I just thought it was very strange. God intervention I believe. Thanks again and if you and I could keep in touch through email, it would mean a great deal to me. You understand and there is just coincidences that I can't explain other than you were meant to be the one person who responded. I hope I'm able to reach you....Jill My email: is missjillq@mail.com
May 18, 2011
 Animals are Gods gifts to us
by: Karen

Dear Jill,

I'm so sorry for the loss of Josie, this is never an easy decision, even though we know it's best for them.

My husband passed away last October 31, and I had to put our precious Toby, who was 14 to sleep on January 4, 2011. Toby was so special, he was such a little snuggler and even though he loved me dearly, he was definitely my husband's boy..........

Toby had been sick, but doing well, after Bob passed, it seemed like Toby gave up and got sicker.

Wow, Josie was 20 years old. Jill, that says alot for you, this little one had a wonderful home and lots of loved.

Animals are the example of true unconditional love, they are always there for us and it sounds like Josie knew how much you needed her over the years.

Jill, allow yourself the time you need to grieve, like everything else, it just takes time. If she had a favorite blanket, toy, etc. Keep it with you, whether you sleep with it or keep it on your lap. Do what you need to do for as long as it takes.

My heart and thoughts are with you, I still have my Angus (11 (ugh) border collie)whom I snuggle all the time.

From one animal lover to another. If you haven't heard of or read "Rainbow Bridge". Google it on the internet. It will make you cry for sure, but it's soooooooooooooo very beautiful.

Love and peace,
Karen

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