She was my rock & I never thought she would have left me so soon.

by Emilie
(Spfld, OR)

I was the closest to my mother she was my rock and best friend. A mother of 3, A beautiful woman 47 years old with a beautiful soul. Family had always been number one priority to her. My two children were her absolute pride and joy. She did so much for others and never asked for anything in return, a true heart of gold. My 6 year old daughter was grandmas girl! she too has that heart of gold. My son was only 3 months old when my mom passed, and it breaks my heart he did not get the chance to know what a wonderful loving woman she was. My mom was a diabetic, for 3 weeks she had been fighting low blood sugars On May 25th, 2012 she passed away in her sleep.

It's been 10 months since you have been gone, truth be told it hasn't gotten any easier. On k's first day of kindergarten and S's first birthday I cried because those were two of my proudest moments as a mom and all I wanted was to share them with you...Most days I am fine and others I wonder why bother getting out of bed, but I do despite how lost and alone I feel without you. It has taken me a while to get back on track I'm slowly getting there. I know I always told you how much I appreciated what you did for the kids and I, somehow it doesn't seem like I thanked you enough
I am so thankful that I got to spend the last 48 hours of your life with you...No one can ever prepare you for a phone call like the one I received that night. My world was shattered, I remember being in disbelief and all I could say was no no no not my mom. praying to god not to take you that it wasn't fair. You are our guardian angel now watching over all of us. I love and miss you so much, I wait for the day I get to see you again, standing with welcoming arms open and a beautiful smile.

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Mar 12, 2013
She was my rock & I never thought she would have left me so soon.
by: Doreen U.K.

Emilie I am sorry for your loss of your mom to a sudden death. It is harder to cope with a sudden death. I felt as if I was in shock for longer than I needed to be. I lost my husband also 10 months ago from a deadly cancer. He was dying slowly for over 3yrs. and I still wasn't prepared for him to die. The worst day for me was the day of diagnoses. My world ended then. I don't know what I am feeling now? I just hate the weekend especially Saturday's. I am miserable every Saturday. The day Steve died. 9.54p.m. bordering on to Sunday morning and the funeral on the Friday so this takes care of the weekend being still a problem for me.
It is harder when you have young children and your mom is not around to see them grow up. This hurts. My husband won't see his two young grandchildren grow up. They are so beautiful. He would have loved them. This is what is unfair about death. Days are so fragile now and we don't know what is around the corner and so we just plod on each day and do what is necessary. But I know how you feel about "Is it worth getting out of bed?" You know what. some days stay in bed if you can. Get someone to look after your children and have a day to yourself doing what you feel like doing. Once every now and then make it a special treat and build on this. Make it a reward and not a burden. I do this and I get through some days better as a result. WE have to look at doing something different and special for ourselves now and then just to get through life otherwise life would drag us down.

Mar 11, 2013
sorry for your loss
by: madelaine

One is never prepared to loose their loved ones. I miss my mom so much.. But your mom was lucky she died in her sleep, she was lucky you were there for her, and she will be watching the kids grow up.. make her prou,d be happy and thankful for the good.. she is still with you.. and loves you.

Mar 11, 2013
My heart hurts for you..
by: Amanda

I am so sorry for your loss.. I lost my Mom when she was 51 to cancer.. Your Mom was so young, and I know how you feel.. she still had things to do and see here... It has been 10 yrs since my Mama passed away.. I was 7mths pregnant with my last child.. and it never goes away.. but, some how every day, every week after you gain strength.. and you start living for your children. God bless you.

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