She's gone...

by Anna

I have a friend called Anna. She was a happy and cheerful girl that everyone liked. But what all of us didn't know was that she was depressed, she cut and starved and tried to kill herself a lot of times. She got locked up to controll her problems by doctors and she got better. She could come home after 6 month and she went abroad to study. And the last week of school i saw on Facebook that she killed herself. She was gone. She had hung herself. It's a month ago and I still have nightmares about it and I'm depressed because it's the only thing I can think about. How she felt, why she did it, what her last thoughts were, if I could had helped her. I miss her so much I cry every night. I just want her to come back.

I will never forget her. RIP Anna 11/6-2012

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Aug 06, 2012
Thank you Doreen U.K.
by: Anna

thank you for replying doreen. I´m sorry for your loss and I hope you feel better now and I will go to counselling. I promise. I don´t really know what to say but thanks for your reply.

Jul 29, 2012
She's gone.....
by: Doreen U.K.

Anna I am so sorry for your loss of your friend also called Anna from suicide. Of course your grief will be great and the nightmares will be present for a while. You are in shock and disbelief. To know Anna was in a critical condition but getting the care she needed is hopefull, but devastating to know it all ended in tragedy. You seriously need to consider grief counselling. Especially when there has been a death by suicide. This is especially hard to deal with all by yourself.
My nephew was 30yrs. He was on medication for depression. this medication causes side effects of suicidal feelings. My nephew fought this hard but it claimed his life in the end. He threw himself in front of an express train. I cried and cried and couldn't stop when I heard the news. It was unbearable sorrow for us as a family. You do wonder what the person was thinking before they died? What was their last thoughts. This is normal. It HURTS. My husband died 11 weeks ago. I wonder the same things. Why didn't I say good-bye. Perhaps because I was not ready to let him go. I WAS IN DENIAL. I wonder what his last thoughts were? How was he coping with knowing he was going to die? he was sad all the time. he didn't want to die. He wanted to live. My husband Steve had a hard life and spent most of his life wishing he could die. When he decided he wanted to live and enjoy his retirement. HE DIED. I don't think you could have helped ANNA. She had specialist care and still managed to feel so very depressed she could not bear to live. this is how it was for my nephew. I also have reached this point and I am surprised I did not die. I have to now LIVE WITH A PURPOSE. I do feel very sad for those people who can't bear to live and suicide is the only way out. I ACTUALLY KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE THIS FAR DOWN AND FEEL HOPELESS THAT. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE. Let us try to still help the ANNA'S of the world in whatever way we can. But don't feel guilty if a life is lost. Let us not live with regrets that we didn't try.

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