She's now at peace, but I miss her so much

by Susan
(United kingdom)

I lost my mum 2 weeks ago on valentines day. She was 55 and battling throat cancer for 6 months. Treatment was optional but she decided against it as she did not have the strength for it.
She passed away peacefully with me and my dad by her side as she took her last breath. As we all knew she wasn't going to be with us for much longer, I thought it would some how make it easier, that the grief wouldn't be so hard and that life would return to normal relatively quickly, i was very wrong. Even though I thought i was prepared for it, nothing can stop the constant ache i now have in my stomach.
I miss my mum so much. she used to embarrass me all the time, but now i would give anything to have her with me again, making her terrible jokes. My mum has been in constant pain ever since she lost her 13 year old son from leukemia and then her dad from lung cancer shortly after that, but I am now happy she can now rest in peace and be with her son and dad once again.

I love you so much mum. You're in my every thought.
Miss you always
Love your Alexie-Foo
xxxxxxx