by M Mack
Life can be a living hell when you miss someone you love so much. Often I feel my love is around me in some way, trying to get my attention. It might be a song on the radio, a touch that feels like small tingling on my head, my hair moving and I'm not touching it, or something might happen that strongly urges me to wonder--is he here? Amazingly, I get those little signs when I really need them. They are comforting, knowing he is still with me in spirit. Saturday, I asked him for a heart in the clouds. I said that would definitely convince me of his presence in my life. I said this to myself, and went about my day never thinking about it again. He always drew messy hearts when I'd get a note or card. The word "love" was always spelled out with a heart drawn on the page- xoxoxo. Sunday afternoon, we attended a Veterans Day Memorial service in town to honor those who had fallen. The wind was blowing but the sun was out. Intermittent clouds lingered in the sky scattering, forming and moving on. I looked up and there it was-amazing! The perfect heart I longed to find for over 2 years. It was just there as though for me and only me directly in front of my face. It was outlined with a deeper color, bluish fringe. My eyes began to tear so I put my head down to wipe away the tears under my sunglasses for a quick moment. When I looked back up it was GONE! Just like that, he said I love you and left. This message was meant for me and I am so comforted to finally know the signs are for real. If you think you are getting little messages in your thoughts, you are. Our lost loves are around us, and they know what we feel and how much we miss them. If someone is trying to get a message to you, believe and not only will you feel comforted, they will too. I pray for all if us that are left here to survive the rest of this life. Its not easy to go through life wanting what you can't have but at least we can walk with courage, strength, and confidence allowing a little happiness to shine thru. We can and will make it as long as we believe that there is an afterlife, here- there and everywhere. God bless us all.