When my baby sister died in Nov 2001,I thought that was very hard.I didn't realize how hard it could be then.Dec 4,2009 my father died.On May 29,2010,my friend of 28 yrs died.June 30,2010,my mother died.Ten months later my best friend/soul mate/husband(My second) of 33 yrs died. I lost the 4 most important people in my life within 18 months.I didn't understand(even though I thought I did)how my mother grieved herself to death 7 months after my dad died.(they were married 64 yrs) It has been 15 months since my heart got torn apart and I still can't quit crying.The only thing that has gotten me this far is my faith in GOD.That and the strong will not to have my children go through both parents leaving so close together as mine did.I write poetry. I try to get out of the house but it only helps for a little while. My birthday was in the middle of August and that's when I began to cry everyday again. According to the previous chart I guess I'm in the 3rd stage.I thought I was handling the grief until then. Everyone keeps telling me it will get better.I keep praying for that.So far it's not.I will post my poems if anyone wants.I will continue to pray for strength for me and for others in the same place.