My brother died April 3,2011 recently and I can't seem to get it together. i feel like my world is empty. It's unknown how he died , he was bypolar and he was so depressed and unhappy alot we spoke on the phone almost every day. I miss him so so much. I have three kids and my husband but I feel so alone and sick that he is gone. I find myself wanting to be with him because I feel he needs me. I want to be able to accept that he is in the Lord's hand and he is at peace I just don't feel that he is. He was not only my baby brother he was my best friend. My family feels that I need to move on it seems that I am angry and I just want to be left alone. what can I do? I want him back!
I am so sorry for your loss. Your grief is really fresh and I can't imagine anyone telling you it is time to move on. You need to be very gentle with yourself. If your family in unable to care for you...do you have a friend you could call upon to help with even the basic of chores right now? Accept all HELP for as long as it is offered.
I would suggest a support group in your area, too. You will find by being with others that you are not alone with your grief. We **so** live in a hurting world!! When you find that information in your area....CALL THE CONTACT PERSON RIGHT AWAY!! You will be surprised how blessed you will be and what a blessing you are. Trust me - Love. These folks want to talk to you!!
Do you have a home church? If so...run to your church. If not...I pray as you are driving that God will place on your heart to stop at a church in your area. There is a pastor praying right now for you to STOP. I recently reached out to a pastor after living in isolation for 3 years and this church has brought healing (and fears!!) The grieving heart acts crazy...ya know!
Read up on this site and the early stages of grief. Your feelings are normal!! Try to live in today. Take one day at a time. I would ask myself...Can I JUST get through today? Yes Dakota. You can live through today.
