(Worcester Ma USA)
I am 23 years old, and happily married. I have wanted to be a mother for as long as i can remember. my husband and i never took precautions to not get pregnant... after a while of not conceiving i thought i was infertile. while battling with that I became pregnant. I was so happy and fulfilled. I quit smoking, and started really taking care of myself. my husband and i found a new spark in our relationship. one Thursday i started to feel VERY sick and became concerned. I started to bleed. an ER visit later, i found that we had lost the baby i wanted so much. I am so torn up inside. this is a depression i have never experienced in my life.
In my life i have gone from being sexually abused, to abusing drugs, come back from all of that and formed a wonderful life. now that i had a miscarriage tho...i feel like i cant come out of this depression. I am lashing out at my husband who is hurting too. i feel so alone, and reaching out has no effect. I dont know where to turn. my little baby that i will never get to meet, could have had such a wonderful life, if "God" had just given him/her a chance...
I am not coping with this well. I never really had good comping skills. this has put a wedge in my relationship with my husband, and i fear i will lose him too.