So lost and sad
I lost my Mom suddenly just over two weeks ago. I was out with my wife and friends when my Dad called me. I answered the phone to hear him say "get home! your mom is not breathing!” I rushed home and walked through the front door only to see my Mom lying lifeless on the floor as the EMT’s tried to revive her. They did a great job and tried their best, at one point I yelled “MOM!!, COME ON MOM!!” but she never came back. I was in shock, I couldn’t believe she was gone. I ran outside and cried so hard. I still don’t believe it’s true.
As the weeks go on it only gets harder. We have a close family and everyone has been supportive but now it’s quieted down and it’s just my two brothers, our wives and my dad left to deal with it. My dad had a really rough weekend this weekend. It’s so sad to see him so torn up. I don’t know what to say to him anymore. They are both 62 and we’re married for 42 years. I felt like my family was in its prime, she saw all three of her boys get married and was so happy.
I’m so mad she was just taken away like that without warning. I feel like nothing will ever make me happy again. Anytime I start to feel ok, I think of her and how I’ll never get to talk to her again. We were so close! I miss her so much, she gave such great advice and was such a great person. I can’t believe I have to go on without one of the people who love me the most. I’m so lost.