13 days ago I lost the love of my life. I am so lost right now.
We met on line and knew each other for only 1 week and we both knew it was perfect true love in that short of time. We met in March 2009, were engaged in July 2009 and married November 2010. Bill passed away 2 days shy of our 6 month wedding anniversary.
I had the most amazing, wonderful, true, pure love in that 2 years and 6 weeks. I am so blessed to have had Bill in my life. Every one I spoke to since the day I met him right thru the funeral services told me what a gentle, loving, caring man he was and how much he loved me and how I changed his life. Made him truly happy.
I have been focusing on those remarks and thoughts since the worst day of my life.
I truly believe Bill is with God now. I truly believe that God blessed this earth with an angel and now has called him home.
When I asked my Dad "Why Bill?", he said that maybe God decided that to call Bill home before he faced a tragedy of some sorts. Maybe God decided Bill had led a wonderful life full of generosity and love and caring that he should be rewarded by going home before tragedy struck and hurt him.
I find comfort in that. For some unexplained reason it makes sense to me.
People are telling me to return to my normal life...what I finally realized was that my normal life included Bill in so many ways. I have to "re-create" a normal life and that is where I am lost.