So many miles, why didn't I call you more mom

by Catrina
(Florida)

She was given a short time for congestive heart failure, and it was the diabetes that took her. I'm told it was peaceful. Her sugars dropped to low, she fell into a coma, and her heart stopped. She is in California, I'm in florida. Neither one of us were big phone people, so neither of us called each other on a regular basis. But I knew she didn't have much time, but I didn't call all the time, I should have called more, told her I loved her every day. Now she is gone, and I can't call her again. The day she passed, I planned on calling her, but I forgot. The three hour time difference didn't help. Because when I thought to call at 9 am, is't 6 am there, and she was a night owl, and slept late in the mornings, so I would wait, then I would forget. Get busy doing yard work, cleaning the house, dealing with a lice infestation on my son's head. I got busy, but what is a half hour out of the day? I was too busy for my mother. Now she is gone......I am glad I did get to travel home and see her before christmas. Give her a hug, and give her gifts. I did get to say goodbye because we did have a moment 4 weeks before she passed where the Dr's didn't think she was going to make the week through. But she was fighter and turned it around.

I just hope she knows that lack of phone calls wasn't because I didn't love her....