So Much Pain Inside, I Miss My Grandpa Very Much
Im a 15 year old boy, and about a month ago I lost my amazing grandfather. He was 63 years old, very healthy for his age and looked real good for being 63. I was so close to him, he was always there for me, and tought me so much. He was such a cool grandpa, he was a biker. My mom, dad, and I had recently moved in with my grandma and grandpa (almost a year). It was a day that I got home from school. Then I heard my grandpa get home from work. About 30 minutes later, he was going to leave. I went outside and talked to him before he got on his harley and took off. All day, we couldnt get a hold of him. We were all worried. That night was the worst night of my life. At about 7 or 8 pm, I looked out my window and saw highway patrols. My grandma, mom, and dad went outside as I stayed in my room. My heart began to beat rapidly, I had a bad feeling. All of a sudden, I hear my mom and grandma screaming and crying. I ran outside as they told me my grandpa died in a motorcycle accident. I started crying like never before. I was so angry and sad, I really thought that I was having a nightmare. Today I still cry and feel depressed once in a while. Every morning I get up for school, and its only me. I used to get up and see my grandpa up with his coffee watching the news and getting ready for work. About a 2 months before my grandpa passed, my great grandpa died too. So it makes it even worse. I just feel so angry and sad. I was the last person to talk to my grandpa. I remember telling him right before he left that if i would see him later, i dont know why. He said yes, and told me to be cool. What makes it even worst is that I lived with him. I keep telling myself to stay strong, and to make him proud of me. I keep praying to God to give me the strength to get through this. I know he is in a better place but I still miss him so much. I havnt been doing to good in school lately. My grades are dropping. Thinking of memories and looking at pictures is just too painful. I even still talk to a picture of him when I feel super sad. I just wish I could see him one more time...I dont know if ill get over this.