So Tired

by Colleen
(South Africa)

I do not have the energy or the motivation to do anything. I hold down four jobs (was five but gave one up) Three of the jobs have reached year end and I do not have the motivation or care to do the work. I need to do the work as I need the money to pay for my daughters uni fees. I feel as if I am going into depression. Before Bruce died I had plenty of energy now all I want to do is crawl into a ball and die.

I am tired of being lonely, scared, heartbroken, I feel totally overwhelmed by all the decisions that I have to make, so I sit here and do not make any decisions. It is far easier to sit and stare into nothing.

Can someone who has been three months in tell me how they managed to motivate themselves to get going?

Bruce I miss you so much.