So unexpected to lose my beautiful daddy
Words can not express what I feel right now. I was on the holiday of a life time and got 'the call' that made my world come tumbling down. 14th October 2012 was the worst day of my life and then I had to travel for 33 hours to be with my family.
The emotions are like a roller coaster and I still can not believe that he is gone! My mum seems to be coping but now I have had to return home and I am constantly worried that she is not really coping, or has not accepted it.
All I want to do is curl up in a ball and stay there until the pain goes away! My Dad was such a wonderful man who just passed away in his sleep.....it seems so unfair as he had so much to live for ...he was 58 ...he had no opportunity to fight it or to say goodbye ....he is not going to be there for all the important things in the future and I am so angry that the world could just take him away!!
I love you my beautiful daddy...you are my shining star and the person I knew that I could always count on. As much as it pains me to say I hope you are watching over us and that you will continue to shine brightly from above xxxxx