Earlier this year I lost my aunt to cancer. No one else knew she had cancer so it came as a shock. Earlier that year she had taken me to start up at university after not seeing her for 2 years, she was like my mum ( my mums sister) as I lost my mum when I was 4.
I think im most angry at the fact she has four children who will now go through what I went through, not having a mum can be painful at times but ill be there for them.
Today I found out my grandad died, Im not sure of the circumstances but I just feel like theres no point in much anymore. My grandma is hurting the most, I wouldnt know how to deal with loosing 2 children and a husband.
I started doing excersise as soon as I find out and then just broke into tears, I dont know how Im supposed to go on doing what I do Im hurting way too much